We all have them, right? A plain old, miserable, terrible day? I hope so. I'd hate to think it was all me. That might point to more deeper issues than I care to acknowledge.....! I had one of those days yesterday. Woke up pissy. A few miss guided comments on my other half's part.....and BAM! That was it. I was angry. Then just mad. Then resentful. Then sad. Spent the morning feeling totally incapable of coping. Not caring to even try to cope. Just wanted to lay down and weep. Of course, upon calling my Mom, who can HEAR such drama in my voice, I was asked what was wrong. I barely got off the phone with her before the floodgates parted. Oh how I cried. Gradually I got myself together. A well timed texted picture of a sticky, smiling sweetheart helped. Couldn't resist laughing out loud. Even after the flood slowed....it didn't take much to start up again. Lane was just being typical, almost 2 year old him, but it was almost unbearable. He didn't want to be changed, didn't want to get dressed, didn't want to eat anything I made him. All of which brought on more tears. Poor kid. He must have wondered if I was losing my mind. I wondered if I was losing my mind. By lunch time I was more worn out than anything. Didn't have the energy to feel anymore. Just didn't care. Put Lane down for a nap after lunch and promptly fell asleep on the couch....crying headache thudding away. The afternoon was definitely better. Went to the school for the girls, sat in the sunshine and enjoyed the warmth for awhile, then brought them home for Nutella Crepes as an after school treat. No one could not smile watching them enjoy those! Again, they probably thought I was losing my mind letting them have Nutella, but they weren't going to question it! My afternoon nap restored some of my spent energy, so I was able to pick up said other half with a proper dose of attitude again. I think he was pretty wary of me, and glad to be dropped off and see me drive away to work! The mindlessness of making coffee, cleaning the store and chatting with customers restored me to my usual cheery self, bringing me back to a decent mindframe. Still. The day sucked. Whew. Hope those are far and few between! What a BAD day.
Smiles (today again), Be well,
Crystal
